Hi
guys, now i'm in da library. no more picture as i am lazy for it. zombie face, no point for showing it to public haha. so i've just recalled that i've type some draft maybe paste on desktop, a few weeks ago haha. old story but never mind, i've spend a lot of time for it. so bear with it. as this draft has been dusty on my desktop, i've edit and put some of the whole story for that holiday haha. You’ll recognize that this blog will be updated when i’m in hectic and
super duper busy of studying or even acomplishing work. Personally, I don’t
understand what am i doing. Please ignore my grammar mistake :p i'm still in the learning process
it has been a long time till my last post. its me again writing
typing using microsoft word to be copied to blogger as my home internet line
has been cut down for a while. I’ll try my best to use maxis broadband as alternative
to accomplish a lot of works to handed in by next week. So this why the post is
here :p. but the reality is, maxis broadband lied to me!!!! this post is published using UM-Wifi-Student.
i've purchased RM 10 with 750 mb package, but it only worked in my cheap smartphone. wasted for 24 hours at first. got to configure something with the setting. after calling the center the day after, everything went well so far. but when connects to the computer, i made my phone as modem, it won't work!!! that second day i didn't know that it worked only using the phone. went to the center at Batu Pahat Mall with no shame face, showing to them my cheap smartphone, asking them whats wrong with my line. i've purchased for RM10 okay!!! (i think they are laughing at me at the time he get to change to another smartphone to change the setting), that handsome guy i'm melting :p showed to me that the internet can be used, but only in smartphone. my cheap smartphone doesn't have that VPN or data setting. what a shame!! till the day i came back to UM, only 18mb were used from 750mb. and thats only for twitter and facebook. hah!! disaster!!! actually, that last day i can use it along the way back to KL, but, as far as you concern, I'm lazy enough to charge my cheap smartphone, heading to Hospital Sultanah Nora Ismail with 22% battery. before at home, i thought that 22% is enough for me to hear songs, but my fingers still didn't satisfy with that unused internet package, i've started to play around with the browser, and guess what?? there's a line!!! i can online!!! but charging for only half an hour won't enough to fill up the battery up to 50% at least. i'm frustrated!!! so again, with no power bank, i'm not smartphone user, i've got online for about 15 minutes on the bus with the energy lost like water flowing. luckily my head started to explode, ignoring the internet on my finger, i've started to sleep soundly along the way to KL for about 3 hours. thats the story of the berukband!!!
back to the draft, so
logically, that week is the midterm holiday for most universities in malaysia
particularly IPTA okay. It would be the most heaven days for me at the starting
of the holiday. Keep playing, watching television and sight seeing like there’s
no tomorrow. So now is already at the middle of the holiday, the hectic part of
this week will be started maybe tonight, as i need to settle down an assignment
of 15 pages (at least) which i haven’t started any of it. And as for thesis, chapter
1 and chapter 2 are in process which actually supposed to be settled for long
time ago. Aini!!! Wake up!!! Do your
work!!! Except for chapter 2 (literature review) which is worryless part .
it is the all along the research part. So skip that part. But it still need a
lot of readings. Damn i don’t like
readings so much. That would be a challenge.
It
would be thankful if y’ll not telling anyone about this if you know me
personally. I’m writing about it just to release my stress. Expressing what is kept
in my heart all along, alone. Thats depressing. Even keep talking about it
again and over again doesn’t make it better. That is really depressing. It is
kind of simple traumatic situation for me when that event occur everynight, everyday,
every week or even every fortnight.
That
is the worst thing that I ever felt. It keep haunting me every weekdays from
the early of this semester till now. This moment. As long as that “creature” is
away from me, I felt safe. So weekends and holiday is like a freedom for me.
But that feel doesn’t last for long if i catch a glimpse of that “creature” at
any place like my room or even at my home. The worst is, in my solely brain of
mine. It is really hard to cast away that “creature”. It possed all the perfect
aspects that is needed in life which is kind of positive jealousy i supposed.
But that positive jealousy is bringging me down even lowered my capabilities.
I’m so worried that this matter will affect all along this semester.
and today, the most recent day, just a few hours back, we're supposed to be handed in the literature review. damn!! only smiling face that i can give dr. :p as i'm the most absent person among the other 4 students under my supervisor, i can imagine what disaster will i face.
till then, lost of idea. adios
